How to Die
Do not be alarmed. I am not talking about physically dying. A while ago I was visiting a church, and the pastor was talking about this very topic. It was very eye opening, and it caused me to think about how I was living my life. The pastor was talking about dying to ourselves. By that I mean that we need to die to our own selfish desires and let God take control of our lives. A lot of times we are afraid to let someone else take control of our lives. We are afraid to be out of control. I am a control freak sometimes and letting someone else take control of my life is a horrifying thought. I can’t even let someone do my dishes for me. My instincts say that I know what’s best. I know exactly what I need or how things need to be done. Then the pastor said something great. He said "The God who created the universe knows best." It is so true. I have seen it in my own life and in the life of one of my friends. I was talking to him a couple weeks prior to this service, and we had an amazing conversation. He explained to me the testimony he had gone through. In a nutshell, he decided to give everything to God, and God gave everything back to him and more. This was so impacting for me to hear because I was at the very beginning of my journey. I was still learning what it meant to die to myself.
It is three years later and things are totally different. Well, not totally different. I still won’t let anyone touch my dishes. However, I have learned how to give my life over to God. In three years I have been in situations, trying to get things to go my way, and things have crashed and burned. I was disappointed time after time, because things were turning out different than I had originally planned. It wasn’t that things turned out poorly all the time. I was just disappointed because they were not how I had imagined them in my head. Then one day, I took a step back and realized that things had actually turned out better than the plan I had for myself. I was getting angry at God, and I didn’t even realize that He was making things better for me. Finally, I stopped trying to figure things out myself. I stopped being closed minded, and allowed God to make the plans for me. Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t just sit back and do nothing. However, I was more flexible with God. I allowed him to make changes in my life, I walked through new doors that he had opened, and I kept an open mind when things would change. I no longer found myself disappointed when things didn’t go as planned. I found myself looking for the silver lining in every situation. I had a new, positive outlook on life, and I was happier because of it.
To die to yourself is to lose everything. We need to be humble and be willing to lose everything and give it to God. When we are willing to do that God steps in and gives back more than we could possibly imagine. To lose is to gain. Luke 17:33 “If you cling to your life, you will lose it, and if you let your life go, you will save it.” God wants us to put our lives in his hands and in return he will take care of it better than we ever could. I challenge each and every person to die to themselves today. Let God take control of your life. It will be scary, but the reward will be worth it.